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VIP New Treatment Tracker: Day 1

Published on May 1, 2013May 1, 2013 by Jesus is for the WoundedLeave a comment

With the rather loud barking of our pup, the mail lady delivered the foam cooler today containing vasoactive intestinal peptide. Wow. It is here!

I quickly gathered myself together with a quick prayer, reading of the instructions, and sipping some water before ceremonially administering the first dose. A quick spray in one nostril delivered 50 mcg of VIP in a stable saline solution. It must be stored in the refrigerator so I found a special spot for it shortly thereafter. Here we go again on another great adventure: another promising new treatment approach to lessen the burden of recovery from Chronic Lyme Disease and Chronic Inflammatory Response Syndrome. Like Mach I with your hair on fire, no?

Within an hour I had a slight runny nose that quickly resolved. No problemmo and this could be expected from a nasal spray. The stress of it all brought fatigue so a nap will follow shortly. Then maybe I will shower for the day. It is beautiful outside today after all.

(For more information on VIP, head to the References section of this blog.)

My Lord goes before me this day and always. To Him be the glory for the results of this new treatment approach. He will be the author of the story that will follow, not the pharmacy, doctor, nor myself. He allowed me to stumble upon this information again and participate in my LLMD prescribing VIP for me. Thank you Jesus for preserving my mind this past year so that I could respond when a new modality presented itself. Thank you for continuing to lead me, walk with me and see that this whole ordeal not be wasted. There are many blessings You have brought me despite the dark days that began October 11, 2011. Your light is forever before me no matter the outcome. Lord help me keep my eyes fixed on You. And if it is your will Lord, heal me.

In Jesus name, amen. Just Julie

New Treatment Approaches on the Horizon

Published on April 29, 2013April 29, 2013 by Jesus is for the Wounded2 Comments

I’ve been back in our home from a for just over a month now and generally feel better. We remediated our home for water damage and what turned out to be a minimal amount of mold. My noxious symptoms were better when I first came home and as of last night, they are much worse. May I explain?

While our home is as clean as it can possibly be, there are always multiple factors, internal and external to address when battling chronic illness. I was staring at the ceiling praying one afternoon this past week after a series of low grade seizure attacks for which I could not identify any particular trigger. The bedroom window was slightly open for fresh air and I had not changed anything recently in my diet, supplements, or Rife treatment programs. I talked to the Lord, praying, for a long time. Not sure how to describe what followed: a suspicion that the lingering yeast infection may have a role in the severity of my ongoing symptoms.

So I did what any dutiful patient would do, I called my husband at work! Well that’s probably not the best use of his employers time; it was the sweetest voice in the darkness that I could find at the moment. Steve looked up “yeast infection and seizures” and found a connection. We hypothesized that the yeast has crossed the blood-brain barrier, contributing to this seizure-like complication that has remained elusive. I knew that I had an undiagnosed recurrence of a urinary tract infection as well, again! (Labs results are pending.) Geez, what if there’s yeast in there too? Other lab testing has already showed that candida is still in my digestive tract. All this seems impossible with my limited diet: no sugar to feed it and several rounds of treatment in the past!

I do not consume added sugar in any foods; no desserts, sweeteners, 1/4 serving of fruit every other day, and only limited servings of gluten free grain carbohydrates. But there are sugars listed on the labels in some of my pharmaceutical-grade, doctor-recommended, and biomeridian-tested supplements. Oh my! At first, I felt betrayed. How could my healthcare practitioners who recommended these supplements and all of the foods that I was consuming not see that there still might be a problem? The feelings didn’t last long as I decided that I need to get to work FAST. These seizure attacks have gone on long enough. IT HAS BEEN A YEAR!

Turns out there are 8 grams of sugar in the daily dose of the powder probiotic I had just restarted. Turns out there were hidden sugars in other supplements and even the 4 ounces per day of coconut yogurt I enjoyed that is labeled as “plain.” Tuesday was a wretched morning after a nice dinner the night before with friends. Further investigation found that my dinner included a smaller-than-usual serving but slightly sweetener form of coconut yogurt, the 1/4 serving allowance of fruit, plus the probiotic later that evening. I did not usually have all of these together on the same night until then. Later in the week, my LLMD said that when the reaction is delayed until the next morning, it might be due to the fermenting of the sugars and yeast. When I woke up and got moving on Tuesday, the seizure attacks could have been triggered by the combination of activity, increased heart rate/blood flow, and the yeast having a party in my brain. I was ripe for an attack, literally.

I may not have all the details correct on how this all works. I don’t need to have it down exactly to know what to do! Immediately I replaced the probiotic; checked the ingredient label for all of my supplements and made adjustments; abandoned the plain coconut yogurt; and cut out even complex grains to one serving or less per day. Within a day I started running anti fungal and Candida programs on my Rife machine. Guess what happened? I felt worse. The first part of today was a nightmare. Is this what they call a herx reaction (i.e. symptoms caused by the toxins of dead organisms before they can be flushed from the body)? Who knows. I have to restrict my diet further anyways. This is still war. I am fighting for my brain and when I cannot breathe in the middle of an attack, it feels like I am fighting for my very life.

Steve wondered today if another factor to consider are changes in barometric pressure that occur when it’s stormy outside. Further research shows that persons with epilepsy and migraines often can have setbacks with changes in barometric pressure. Gratefully, I don’t have epilepsy. Only problem with the weather connection is that there is nothing a person can do about the weather! (We sang a song about this in Mott High School Chorale. All we can do is “just complain!”)

So the illness profile that is Julie is a nightmare these days with some nice moments occasionally! Everything appears to have the potential to trigger a pre-tic state or a full blown seizure attack; these generally come when falling asleep or waking up in the morning. Yes, it is common with Lyme Disease to have numerous noxious symptoms that change at will and vary with each individual. The LLMD has added the diagnosis of Chronic Inflammatory Response Syndrome to the mix which describes the sickness that can follow after exposure to water-damaged buildings. Fibromyalgia came as a diagnosis in 1992 with chronic pain and issues with fatigue. While I have had many very happy and active days over these past 20 years, the clinical picture has gotten quite complex of late. Thankfully, there is a new approach on the horizon: VIP. Here’s the latest research:

http://www.survivingmold.com/docs/VIP_published_3_2013.pdf

I’m not the kind of person that sees a T.V. commercial about a new drug and goes to the doctor demanding that it be ordered for me. This time, I have pursued VIP after seeing this new research and talking with another person online who has benefited tremendously. VIP stands for vasoreactive intestinal peptide, a naturally occurring hormone in the body. My LLMD recommended it to me a year ago and we were unable to find it in the United States at that time. I now fit both the research protocol and the compound pharmacy protocol I found online that issues VIP in the United States. I really want to try it and am hopeful for some relief of these complications of illness.

I’ll write more about it as the order is processed Lord willing this week and as I begin treatment. The average time for a person to notice a benefit is two months. Sigh. Regardless, I am looking forward to trying this new treatment approach, now that there is reasonable clinical indication that it could help me.

Thanks for hanging in there with me. I’m lying low this evening after “doing it sick” today and baking some treats for others who have helped us so much this year. If you are nearby (and you know who you are!), feel free to call me for a tasty treat. Or maybe I’ll see you on Thursday with my plate of cookies for the National Day of Prayer remembrance at our church. I do hope I make it this year . . .

Did She See Them?

Published on April 27, 2013April 27, 2013 by Jesus is for the Wounded2 Comments

In my weakness, it is the Lord who helps me think of others not me! Many times this is a blessing for both of us. Today, this is my test of faith.

I am grateful to finally get the thank you card together for the staff of the hotel that we stayed at during the remediation of our home this past Winter. Now it’s time to bake lots of cookies and deliver them at the staff’s shift change for maximum sharing of the goods. Hey, I don’t want any of these fine folks to be left out! We’ve been back in our home a month and I still remember their kindness that cannot go unnoticed, even now that life has gone on . . .

If I am guided by the Holy Spirit to serve or give to someone else and I let it go by, then I am probably too preoccupied with the stuff of my life to focus on anyone else. When that happens, it is a sad moment indeed. I could easily make an excuse that would sound legitimate with how I feel these days. But that would be cutting out the strength that the Lord adds when I am too weak to do anything. If He gives me the insight that I need to reach out to someone else, do something above my abilities, give more than I feel comfortable, then He will also provide the “goods” needed to complete the task. He leads us unto good works as an outpouring of His Spirit in us, sometimes as a manifestation of our spiritual gifts and other times by His grace as noted in His Word:

He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake. Psalm 23:3b

If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen. 1 Peter 4:11

“And Jesus, looking upon them, saith, With men it is impossible, but not with God; for with God all things are possible.” Mark 10:27

I see that following His lead is for my good as well as it brings me close to Him:

Philippians 1:6 says, “Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus” (NIV).

I may feel like crap yet I know from my experience of this past year that if I just start in the right direction, He will be faithful to help me complete the work to which He leads. When the task is completed, the next step, perhaps a more difficult one begins. Yeah, letting go of the results, the human need for appreciation and recognition is a tougher one for me.

Such is the case with the red tulips. I don’t really know if she ever saw them, planted for her back in time. After all, she has her own calling and tasks to complete. Sometimes it hurts for my sacrifice of precious time and energy to go unnoticed. It hurts even more when it is repeated and that largely comes when I haven’t gotten it right the first time, trying something again and hoping for a different result the second time. In the Twelve Step program, they call this “insanity!” Expecting different results is also magical thinking and rarely helps in reality. There’s so much more missing in this relationship with this gal than red tulips. Flowers simply may not have been on her radar at all. Lord, help me let this ol’ memory go.

The Lord sees my heart and always notices. He notices every time, perfectly, on time, and in my personal heart language.

²³Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, ²⁴since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving. Colossians

So Lord I pray that You:

²³Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
²⁴See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting. Psalm 139

Bring my motivations to light and help me to serve others in the language of Your heart not mine. Lead me in Your ways, strengthen me in my pajamas, and let any light that may shine on me be for Your glory alone. Thank you for the gift of Your Holy Spirit, teaching me, guiding me. For the glory of Your name Jesus Christ I pray. Amen.

Now where’s the sugar and vanilla?

It’s after midnight and the tilapia is chewy

Published on April 24, 2013April 24, 2013 by Jesus is for the Wounded8 Comments

The real title to this blog was to be: “To submit is divine,” but I thought that if I wrote that, no one would read it! Who wants to submit to anything? Hey, in my flesh and self-will, no way!

This day I had to succumb anyways to the nausea, headache, half-day of seizure attacks, and relentless sickness that is Lyme Disease and Candida. Oddly, it was lying in bed with my brain “fried” for hours and staring at the ceiling that the Lord gave me the quietness I needed to discover what might be making me sicker: every stinking grain of sugar. Most of us with Lyme, chronic illness and inflammation know the pitfalls of sugar. I’d already broken my denial on that one earlier last year. Sugar feeds Lyme and yeast infections (a common complication from antibiotic and bacteria-killing treatments), messes with metabolism, weakens an immune system already under attack, and simply won’t satisfy the angst of my flesh for long enough to bother with a treat anyways. And today it appears that some hidden sources are making me worse.

I am already on a “sugar-free diet” by the way! Desserts are long gone. I consume 1/4 serving of low-sugar fruit every other day, use only unsweetened products, omit artificial or herbal sweeteners (that contribute to headaches for me), cut out honey/maple syrup and so on. Turns out that there’s sugar hidden in my probiotic that is supposed to be helping me! Two doses I take daily equal 8 grams per day! Oh no! Coupled with the 2-4 grams in my “plain” coconut yogurt, my only real treat, that adds up to way too much! Now that’s a bite in the shorts for sure.

I started to suspect something wasn’t right a few nights ago when I actually began craving my late night supplement concoction mix of coconut yogurt to make the various supplement powders and tinctures more palatable. So instead I found alternate soft foods to use at night and allowed myself the coconut “treat” of 2 ounces only in the morning. Can you imagine the restraint it takes to open a luscious carton of yogurt and only eat 2 ounces? Yeah, I did it and felt a sweet victory. And now that yogurt is my enemy with the HCL Synbiotic Probiotic. I guess even the low sugar fruits must now go for a season as well. This is WAR!

To submit to a drastic dietary change is very difficult and takes time to integrate into a nutritional plan for healing. I wrote the “Extreme Dietary Survival Strategies” in the PAGES section of this blog to reflect the many guidelines I’ve already learned from others and from my own experimentation. Looks like there are some new ones to add! Geez o’ man. Instead of mixing my supps with dreamy plain coconut yogurt, I’ll have to use coconut butter or unsweetened vanilla almond milk. O.k. I can do it. If this change minimizes the symptoms that killed my day today, I will submit to a 100% sugar-free diet.

It is the nature of our flesh to want what we want, when we want it, and in the way or timing that we want it isn’t it? When we want it is usually right now! It is the nature of living in the United States where we have access to just about everything at just about any time of day or night, that makes it hard to delay gratification. It is the nature of becoming a mature adult in a civilized society to learn that planning ahead, hard work, sacrifice, and patience will get us much more than grabbing things within reach. However, beyond this it is the work of the Holy Spirit in the life of a believer of Jesus Christ that knows for certain that the perceived barriers in our lives are merciful paths to true freedom and peace, even joy. Such is the glorious mystery of living with Jesus in one’s heart, where He goes before us with love and grace every step of the way. In the end we will receive more than we ever dreamed possible as we bring glory to our Lord and Savior for waiting on Him. “The end” may not be next week; the end may transform into our eternity with Him as the crap of this earthly life has ultimately succumbed to His plan and purpose. Our wants and needs may even change!

Seems strange that in the wee hours of the morning after some chewy tilapia, my mind would finally clear. My tears have finally been wiped away. The realization that to submit is to live is now here: the authorities, the situations, the delays in my life are Christ-ordained and designed for my best self, best life after all. I do not claim to understand why I or you must go through all of this suffering, loss and pain in the way that we each experience it. Let’s pray about it. The answer to the “why” question is often left to the mysterious unanswered questions of life. I do claim to know the One who reveals Himself to me in His perfect timing with gentleness and love. I do claim to have faith in my Jesus who has promised me that He will be with me through it all.

I’ll betcha tomorrow is going to be a better day.

Let’s wait with great expectation together, k?

At last, a better evening!

Published on April 23, 2013 by Jesus is for the WoundedLeave a comment

Praise ye the Lord: I had a better evening! Got to prepare some yummy foods for a sweet dinner with my hubby and a young family we had not seen in over a year. Even sampled a tiny chocolate-covered almond ice cream tidbit. Yeah, I’d recommend them. They are too small to create any guilt or hard feelings so go for it!

Thank you Lord for sharing your goodness with me today. I needed the encouragement to keep me going when the times are tough. Even if it doesn’t last long, I will trust in You. You knew just what I needed today. Smiles all around and happy feet too . . .