Jesus is for the Wounded

They say it was sunny outside today

Published on October 28, 2012October 28, 2012 by Jesus is for the WoundedLeave a comment

Sunny? I did see it through the curtains this afternoon. Yup, it was sunny.

Rainy the other day? Saw the rain in the sidewalk cracks when getting the mail. Yup, it rained.

Indian summer with weather in the 70s yesterday? Let’s see, I was so sick driving to some important errands that I hardly noticed. Yup, I think it was warm.

Composted a few flower beds? My wonderful husband says the beds in the front of the house are now done. Yup, landscaping is getting done.

Does anything help me to feel better anymore? Epsom salt/baking soda bath at about 10:30 p.m. then showering this evening. Yup, got me dressed and moving as far as this computer.

Baby shower for a sweet friend this afternoon? Saw the pictures on Facebook. Yup, it went well without me.

Sure is a different measure of living, this Lyme thang. Now let me try another way of looking at thangs:

The sun warmed the bedroom calming my temperature fluctuations this afternoon. Yes Lord! The sun shines through an October sky warming me well.

A gentle rain brought nourishment to some late vegetables and the re-potted flowering kale on the porch. Yes Lord, Your watering prepares all the plants for the harshness of Winter.

Warmer weather diminishes the pain in my body and the sunshine carries me through the day like nothing else. Yes Lord, you are the glorious Creator, designer of all. In your arms, nothing is wasted.

Five dollars bought a truckload of rich brown compost to nourish our garden beds before they go to sleep for the Winter. My beloved got things started today. Yes, Lord, I am grateful and can “taste” the cucumbers of 2013 already . . .

A long soak in a hot tub is an ultimate treat for relaxation of the mind and body. Sleep can come easier: rest, and restoration. Thank you Lord! Ahhhh.

What a joy to see a new life in the making, bathed in the love of family and the Lord. Hope she’ll like my gift and love to be sent along too.

Guess it’s a matter of perspective, eh? I am weak. Lord, help me see with Your eternal eyes, Your eternal heart.

It’s peaceful tonight

Published on October 25, 2012 by Jesus is for the WoundedLeave a comment

Somewhere in the world, it’s peaceful tonight. Not so much in my heart.

Earlier today, the Doc offered to pull some consultants at a special conference into my case and I felt honored. Honored, yes. At peace, no. This means more evaluation, opinions and risky treatments. Even the generic for Valium isn’t enough to calm my fried nerves these days, to prevent seizure attacks. The drug actually made everything worse this past weekend. Twenty-eight hours of noxious symptoms with 2 breaks of about 3 hours each! And I felt like I had the flu during this “breaks.” No peace for the weary.

I’ve stayed up unusually late this evening because I just can’t face the seizure-like tics again tonight. Lord have mercy! Will I make it all the way until dawn? The episode earlier today was discouraging since I knew that I would not have a very long time to rest afterwards. Had some medical appointments and had to be up and going before 3:00 p.m. in the afternoon. I know, poor me. In bed til late again. It was five hours of sleep in a 4-hour and 1-hour segment and it’s a weird thing when it all comes after 5:00 a.m.!

Then again, there was a peace within me at church this evening. I stood up, thanked everyone for praying for me, and asked for prayer over the new consultations. I’ve been to the Wednesday night service twice in the past 2 months and Sunday morning worship the same amount. Tonight I not only got to sit with my husband and be his wife in church, I gratefully got to go out to eat dinner afterwards too. Subway feels like the finest cuisine in town when you haven’t been on a date with your beau in a very long time. I love Steve so much! Last night he held me close until I fell asleep finally at 5:00 a.m. That’s love.

So Lord, you’ve allowed so many difficult times in my life lately and yet I can see sweet moments too. The little things mean more again, a lesson that I have benefited from many times. I think I’m going to borrow your peace tonight and place it in my heart until I can find my own. Thank you for some time out with Steve and doing some creative work this evening. I probably should have been sleeping, I know. I am weak. You are strong. Be my strength once again and get my hind end to bed already!

Psalm 121

New King James Version (NKJV)

121 I will lift up my eyes to the hills—
From whence comes my help?
²My help comes from the Lord,
Who made heaven and earth.

³He will not allow your foot to be moved;
He who keeps you will not slumber.
⁴Behold, He who keeps Israel
Shall neither slumber nor sleep.

⁵The Lord is your keeper;
The Lord is your shade at your right hand.
⁶The sun shall not strike you by day,
Nor the moon by night.

⁷The Lord shall preserve you from all evil;
He shall preserve your soul.
⁸The Lord shall preserve your going out and your coming in
From this time forth, and even forevermore.

Faith in Jesus is Critical

Published on October 19, 2012October 19, 2012 by Jesus is for the WoundedLeave a comment

Yeah so it’s the message I put on the metal template of my new jewelry. Of course. It’s not just a trend for me. Faith in Jesus is critical to my survival these days!

I think I slept 2 hours, twice last night, awakened by demonic influences, seizure attacks, and a massive headache. Somewhere in the middle of these 2 episodes of sleep, I pushed myself out of bed to eat, drink, and read . . . my husband’s Popular Mechanics magazine, of course! Reading about the most innovative inventions of the past year is sport for a re-budding entrepreneur like me. I love creativity in virtually all of its forms. We all have creativity in us, I believe placed here by the Lord of all creation, the master Creator. And somewhere in the middle of reading about these inventions I developed a theory about my seizure attacks (formerly known on this blog as “seizure-like tics.”)

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Here goes: if I have seizure attacks when falling asleep and perhaps in a unique stage of the sleep cycle then can the attacks be caused by disease in the sleep center of the brain? I have pulsing sensations behind my eyes at times, perhaps near the hypothalamus which is part of the brain’s sleep center. If this dysfunction is localized I wonder if it is possible to use my Rife, Beam Ray machine to target the frequencies of these particular tissues? Cautiously I may even consider medications or supplements (although I have already tried several of each!). My brain MRI was normal so there’s no structural issue. Hmmmmm. Looking forward to my next appointment with my Lyme Literate Doctor; we have so much to discuss!

The Lord gave me and you the ability to create. The Lord gave me and you the ability to use our minds to solve problems, reason, remember, learn, and experience emotions. These are called executive functioning skills. We are unique from all animals and plants in this regard and with these gifts comes stewardship. I will only ask the question for myself: am I using what I have, where I am, with what abilities I’ve got? Better said is as follows:

1 Peter 4:10-11

New King James Version (NKJV)

¹⁰As each one has received a gift, minister it to one another, as good stewards of the manifold grace of God. ¹¹If anyone speaks, let him speak as the oracles of God. If anyone ministers, let him do it as with the ability which God supplies, that in all things God may be glorified through Jesus Christ, to whom belong the glory and the dominion forever and ever. Amen.

So I create. I try to figure this Lyme stuff out. I also wait on Him for answers, inspiration, healing, grace, mercy, everything. In the middle of the night, when I can do nothing because of the wretchedness of Lyme Disease, I simply say the name, “Jesus.” In the end, faith in Jesus is critical.

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Thank you Lord for increasing my faith. Thank you Lord for meeting me in the middle of the night last night. Thank you for the comfort and faith I can feel in the arms of my Steve. I humbly submit to your will and purpose. And if something good comes from this wretchedness, may You alone receive the glory. In Christ’s name, Amen.

Great info. for those new to the topic of Lyme Disease

Published on October 14, 2012October 14, 2012 by Jesus is for the WoundedLeave a comment

Great Info. for those new to the topic of Lyme Disease

Click on the blue link above for an easy-to-understand article and link to the important and free movie, Under Our Skin.

Could be a helpful resource for sharing about the Lyme Disease story with family and friends. Thank you Dr. Mercola!

Sunday afternoons can be the hardest

Published on October 8, 2012October 8, 2012 by Jesus is for the Wounded3 Comments

After my former spouse left me, I experienced what most would now call a “Extreme Life Makeover!” Moving my residence 5 times, losing my home, the work injuries, the condo fire, feeling destitute, deaths in the family, oh my!, I could go on. I won’t because every single trial was ordained by God to bring me to His throne of grace, to rely totally on Him, and to understand Him as my Heavenly Husband, Lord, and King. The restoration that followed would blow your socks off if you knew me in 2003 and in 2012. Many thought I would turn away from the Lord during those dark days. Er, no, I became humbled, dependent on a worthy Savior. He sustained then restored me and for that I am grateful.

I am grateful that He has chosen to bless me in this season of my life. Wow. I thought I was going to write about how difficult Sunday afternoons were as a “separated” then “single” woman in her late forties, back then. I thought I was going to vent the trouble I had this Sunday afternoon when I found myself very alone. Er, no, guess not.