For how many things can you test, research, treat, and repeat
Before you get to your end with hands empty again and again?
Like a parasite sucking the life out of you while it hides in waiting
Adding to your pain, lighting the match of your symptoms once and again.
Don’t expect the ones paid to know to really know anything at all my dear,
Outside of their textbooks even if they read them, even if they look at you at all.
Because if you don’t fit the pattern you really may have no where you can go
And temptation will come to do things only animals might do to get by.
Sounds sick but there is someone out there who understands this bad rap
And sits with you facing that brick wall with pieces of dreams that no longer fit.
You can’t make this stuff up yet this is your reality. How cruel it really is.
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The One who really knows
Has that name you cannot forget
He hung in front of scoffers
Hands nailed, sharp spear in His side.
He chose to hang from that cross
To bear the consequence of this world
The effects of evil you endure
That just wasn’t supposed to be.
He still weeps for your pain
Knows it all very well
Stays near, hear Him speak
Words of comfort if you but dwell.
Never let Him go little broken one
It will help you endure
One day all will be well
That promise is ’cause He loves . . .
And on that you can rest.
Yes, it is now time to go to bed.
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Don’t fear the seizures that may come
They have made you braver than anyone
Who else could face the tempest each night
Yet rest in his den without trust in something more?
How ever have you come this far
When so many would have died two thousand times
If you were not given supernatural strength
He has ordained for the days to come?
Only your Lord knows the day and time
When all will be made well, be made right
Until then you hang in there my precious child
I love you and will rock those shakes in my loving arms.
Think on that when the tears surely come
Knowing all are held in my two hands
I count them, bring them my righteousness
In a way only I now understand.
You must trust me albeit a bit blind
Have I not restored from the locusts before?
Have I not given you the love of your life
The dreams of your heart in your home?
So with confidence that comes from Me
Go forth into the night as it becomes day
Knowing My time is not of this world
And your gifts don’t come wrapped as for others.
You will be rewarded for trials
I have promised and this you know
Just trust in your Lord, Jesus Christ
For His love, His goodness will be evermore.
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And so I did. My title was the wrong question. My answer is Jesus Christ.
JJ