Lift me up my Lord, my King!
Don’t leave me here alone forgone
I am dying inside as one they have abandoned
Despite my attempts to serve, to obey, decaying inside all the while.
There is no reserve
To bring to life anymore
The light left me long ago when wretched darkness
Became the friend I never wanted and never invited to stay.
The desperation drips with tears
The emptiness has no where left for an infill
The days blur meaninglessly from one to the next
The prayers still go unanswered by the God who has always known best.
Grant me some goodness
Oh Lord of my heart, my King
I’m drowning here with no-nowhere left
To Google, to turn, to ask, to keep me going ’til the day You will speak.
Have I not done the things that are set
The ones I thought you showed me to do?
Yet the suffering ramps louder than my screams with each seize
Take me from this hell please oh Master of my heart. Isn’t it my time?
Humbly, I will wait. JJ